When I was a child I scowled. My expression was a severe case of "Resting Bitch Face". I do not remember being very unhappy as a child, but I do remember not being overly happy. I simply existed in my life, experiencing moments of joy and moments of sadness, together intertwined the way kudzu vines … Continue reading You Will Probably Survive Your Messed Up Childhood
Today for the first time publicly, I want to explain the ins and outs of this name change and why I finally felt ready to.
A deep, longing rain washed over the valley today. It pushed leaves from trees and swept them down sidewalks in little rushing rivers that eventually led to gutters, no doubt hiding nothing more than debris and Halloween candy wrappers. It's a heavy rain. There is no wind, no thunder, just the constant trickling down my … Continue reading We Needed The Rain
It's taken me years to work out what to call what happened that night. For the first five years it was "consensual". I told myself that because I didn't understand that sexual assault and sexual harrassment are nuanced. The first 25 years of my life I'd been taught that rape and sexual assault only happened … Continue reading My Sexual Assault – The Truth & Why I Didn’t Report
These past few weeks I've watched in horror and support of the women who bore witness against Dr. Larry Nassar, the USA Gymnastics doctor who sexually assaulted at least 150 women, many of them minors as young as 12, over the span of his decades long career. In these moments where I'm lost in their … Continue reading When Someone You Love Has Been Sexually Assaulted
I started having panic attacks in high school. I didn't know that's what they were at the time. I thought maybe something was wrong with my brain. I blamed them on lack of sleep or not eating enough for breakfast. Like clockwork they'd arrive, first period, about 20 minutes into the school day. I'd be … Continue reading Deep Quiet – Finding Calm In The Midst Of Panic